life is the bee's knees

assalamualaikum. today is the anniversary of my birth. it all feels very normal. i ate rice at kanna even though it was like 10:30am. and then i went to the studio with mama to practice for the charity dinner thing. and then uncle anuar picked us up to go eat bcs mama lapar; i got sweet potatoes before we left for homst. and then ayah came and picked us up from homst and we went home. and then i took a shower and did the dishes. and now we're on the way to go watch the new star wars movie. i'm not that huge of a fan of the star wars series but mama and ayah have been marathoning the last 6 movies for this so yeah. it's supposed to be good so i'm probably going to be enjoying it anyway. because i just enjoy going out with the family (sans syajerboo for obvious reason.) yep even abang is with us.  mama and ayah were the first to wish me a happy birthday at around midnight. and then zaim came up to my room because i guess mama reminded him lol. abang literally wished me wh...

assalamulaikum. we had a sleepover at farrah's house. farrah, whom i have not seen since somewhere around this time, last year. it was a little bit disappointing that not all seven of us could be there, but we made do with five.  i haven't been to farrah's house in years and i was delighted at how big it was. i almost forgot. i love big houses. i love looking at them. i love being in them. although, i don't think i'd want one for myself. something about so much unnecessary space and nooks and crannies where things (that probably don't exist but i get paranoid into thinking up) could lurk just doesn't sit right with me. we talked all night long and barely slept.  if there was one thing i could summarise from all the talking we did is how different we all are. all my friends separated going into form 1. save for farrah who moved at the end of year 4. farrah's stories about her outrageous friends (and by outrageous, i mean outrageous ) seeme...

assalamualaikum. dang it's been a while. i'm sorry?  i've been stressed and busy with my end-of-the-year exams and all of the school stuff i somehow managed to push back on doing until virtually the end of the year. i guess that sums up why i haven't been writing all that often. but it isn't just that, i think? i recently submitted a video for vocal fest 2015 and got in and after all the registering and paying the fee, i finally got the itinerary for the three-day event and....... i'm nervous to say the least. anxious is more like it. i'm trying to get rid of this so-called "inferiority complex" which i'm 85% sure is a thing. but basically, thinking of the people i'm going to meet–who are probably going to be better at what seems to be one of the only things i'm good that–*hollows out my insides*. and yeah, i guess it's kind of my fault that i seem to turn everything into a silent competition–where i almost alway...

assalamualaikum. okay it has, forreal, been a while. i missed writing on my blog and getting excited about saying things. life has been busy. it's exam season for me right now and i'm at study groups as often as i can because God knows i can't study when there's no one studying with me. something about suffering through it together, i suppose. so far, physics papers 2 and 3 and chemistry papers 2 and 3 are done. physics, hm. how to say. chemistry also, can la. truthfully, i'm pretty sure my mind has been compressing everything and has been trying to block out the memory of taking those papers so i can't say much, as i don't remember much. i can tell you though, that i had a slightly better time answering chemistry than physics. oh oh oh, i do remember something from physics paper 2. there were 3 sections and i didnt realise until after the paper when my friend were discussing it. i completely missed section c and lost like 20 marks :") oh wel...