post-spm troubles
assalamualaikum. i've been meaning to write this blogpost for a while now but never actually got around to it because, well, i'm me. my heart has been heavy recently because i've been (over)thinking about my future and what i want to do in life and who i am as a person and all the ways i seem to fall short of the mark and tf it's too early for me to be having an existential crisis?!?!? visual representation of my mind idk if everyone else is struggling with this but things kinda went downhill for me after spm. graduating high school meant i lost basically what was my only constant in life. almost every day, i could expect to wake up early, have cik omar pick me up, see familiar faces, eat familiar food at 10:20am like clockwork, spend approximately six hours at school by a schedule that was prepared for me, and go home tired, but the good kind of tired. and now, all of that, gone. losing all that has shaken the confidence i had in myself and now i mostl...