life is the bee's knees

assalamualaikum. i've begun my quest of applying for as many scholarships as i can. the bad thing about this is throughout this "quest" of mine, there have been multiple instances where i had to face the reality that my results are just not good enough for some of these scholarships. i mean, it sucks yeah, but i've also realised that it doesn't make me feel as bad as i would've felt a year ago and that's always a good thing because form 4-early form 5 me was a raging ball of self-doubt lol i had a look at my examination results from 2015-2016 and i was shook . i don't think i ever really realised how much i improved in the span of two years until now so i suppose not all is bad. i'm still very proud of myself and the results i managed to receive though i do wished i worked a little bit harder on those Bs and A-minuses in my results lol. things would be much easier if i had. oh well, no use crying over spilt milk. another thing i've had...

to ignore the struggles of women ALL OVER THE WORLD just because you don't necessarily see the injustice around you or where you live is kind of, for a lack of a better word, ignorant. intersectional feminism understands how different parts of women's identities (i.e their race, class, religion and sexual orientation) impacts the way they experience oppression. for example, in Malaysia, malay women might not go through the same difficulties indian women do because malays make up the majority of the population. and of course, growing up with more malay friends than indian friends might not expose you to the the issues that they might have to go through but just because you personally haven't seen or heard of it doesn't mean it doesn't happen.  and even if women in Malaysia don't experience that many injustices, that does not mean one can simply undermine the struggles of women in other parts of the world and how the movement works to help them. i gtg............

assalamualaikum. so i got my spm results today.......... and they were GREAT! definitely better than i imagined it going but that is likely due to the fact that i tend to think of the worst case scenario at all times. (i should really stop doing that.) alhamdulillah, praise Allah, i ended up with good enough results that i don't feel horrible about myself. in fact, i ended up with good enough results that i actually feel proud of myself. IN FACT, I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I EVEN SCANNED IT HERE LOOK AT IT LoOOOOoOooK click for less crappier quality lol am i bragging too much? i'm sorry. it's just that considering my academic history throughout the first 4 years of high school, i never would have thought this is how my results would end up. so i'm very happy. i'm happy that i proved myself wrong, i'm happy that i didn't make my parents regret all that money they put into my tuition fee, i'm happy that i can finally submit my UPU application ...