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assalamualaikum,

omg it's been more than 8 months since my last blogpost and so much has happened since then! i mean, fgs i was still in PERAK when i wrote my last post. granted, it was during finals i.e. i was about to end my time there but still! when i say a lot has happened since my last update, i say that because it's obvious, a no-brainer. but if you were to ask me exactly what happened since april 2018, i would need to take several moments to tell you about the eight months after that. mainly because:

1. i have terrible memory
2. knowing item 1, i still fail to write things down because i forget how easily i forget
3. 1 and 2

that being said, let me take some time out, sit down and try to remember all (read: some) of the things i've done since my last blogpost. huhu

the first thing that i can think of is that i finished a 1-year course at KMPk with a CGPA of 4.00 ayyyyyyy and that i basically managed to survive living away from home for the first time in my life! i've gained a lot from being there; got to learn from amaaaazing lecturers, make new friends (that i havent properly talk to since i left oh noes), had a pointless almost-campus romance that i pretty much knew was never gonna actually happen, took on leadership roles, joined events/activities that took me to other states, broadened my horizons basically. through it all, i was probably most thankful to my roommates (khaidimona 5eva) who played a big part in how well i adapted to living away from my parents huhu i'll always love them lots. honourable mentions for my classmates whom i had tons of fun and worked hard with and obvs my lecturers who managed to nurture a great love for learning inside me <333333333

next, after a two month long break from studying i continued my academic adventure at uitm where i am currently pursuing my acca qualification!! uwu your girl is about to become a certified accountant!!!! and i say about very loosely because at this point, i only finished one semester that i thankfully ended with pretty good scores! i took the first three knowledge papers (AB, MA, FA) and passed them all alhamdulillah. may my second semester go as smoothly insyaAllah. if you're reading this, keep me in your prayers cs shit's about to get bumpy.

in the midst of all this, i also applied for a few scholarships! none of which have worked out but the point is, all my life i've hated the thought of applying for scholarships because it always made me feel really crappy about myself but i got my ish together, established a digital version of all my documents/certificates and had it all nicely organised to make things a lot less stress-inducing for myself!! i've grown, oke.

mmmm OH during my semester break, i participated in a group discussion for sexual abuse in malaysia!!! i was initially supposed to just teman ain but they were giving rm50 compensation for participants so i thought 'what the heck. why not?' and ended up having a nice time. i was very shaky at the beginning of the discussion and had trouble speaking without choking on nothing but things got better haha. me and ain were the youngest people at the discussion khkjdhsdkjhskd everybody else had JOBS, or were getting their PhDs!!! a sis was shook but i'm quite proud of the way i presented myself. there was a really cool woman there who had kids my age and older and she was so open and honest and badass i loved her and i loved listening to her talk and i really appreciated the way she (and everyone else there) really listened and took into account what i had to say despite my age haha nak nanes sikit sebab terharu but yeah. it was a really good experience and im glad ain invited me.

so uh yeah that was just some of the things i've done since 8 months ago and it doesn't seem like a lot because i forget im sorry. 

oh uh i also went to the cinema alone and watched spider-man: into the spider-verse recently and it was soooo gooooood omg!!! i loved miles, i loved the animation, i loved the storyline and i LOOOOOVE sunflower omg why does everything post malone make pop off ksksksksks

anyway i hope i write more posts in 2019. bye!!!