finding? revising? my purpose.

assalamualaikum.

this is my second post of 2019 omg. for someone who always thinks a lot about putting her thoughts down into a comprehensible medium, i sure am terrible at rising to the occasion lmao.

i'm realising that the purpose of me starting this blog and the way i use it (barely) now has changed somewhat. back then, i seemed to have a lot of emotions that i needed to unload just so i could focus on other stuff like school. but now, i've been thinking a lot about the past and realised how hard it is to remember the things i used to do and the way i used to feel. and that makes me a little sad. i managed to find a number of old diaries from my pre-teen years and had a lot of fun reading and remembering how dramatic i used to be. i want to be able to do that 10 years down the road about my 20-year-old self. i want to be able to see my growth.

and this poorly kept blog is my attempt at making sure i get enough prime material to laugh at in a few years. hopefully.