life is the bee's knees

AUG 5: this is a random post i am writing up because i wanted to get a video of me typing on my mechanical keyboard hehehehe not gonna lie it's the only thing that is making doing my studying bearable. just the feel and sound that comes out of me typing on it... SATISFIES ME SO MUCH sometimes i can't believe that some people prefer membrane keyboards that make no sound and aren't as tactile but i guess the world is made up of different people and it's important to understand that. but it just sounds so good!!!!!! and feels even better hehehehe i feel like i'm so much more productive when i hear that clicky clacky noise eheheheh like i'm doing important shit when really most of the time i'm just randomly typing shit like this blogpost that will not matter to anyone  with that, i would like to include a link to a video that pleased me immensely and i hope one day i can reach this level of thocc UPDATE SEPT 15: i come back to inform you that i have successfully...

D-11 from finals my exams at the exam centre have just been cancelled and i stand to be offered to sit for it remotely invigilated. i just ran the system test and by all intents and purposes, i have fulfilled all requirements and should be good to go on taking it. which is why there is this small, hard ball of guilt settling at the bottom of my stomach. it started with launching one morning class in bed and it snowballed into barely comprehending anything i hear during online classes. i don’t know how i let it get this far. especially considering i’m privileged enough to have sufficient tech and a strong enough connection to join online classes with minimal issues. but where am i left right now? feeling guilty about feeling selfish. wanting the exams to be completely cancelled so i have an absolutely concrete reason to not take them, absolving me of having to do the exams when i’m unprepared through no fault but my own.  aside from the guilt, i don’t even know how to sort out the r...