this is not what i wanted
D-11 from finals my exams at the exam centre have just been cancelled and i stand to be offered to sit for it remotely invigilated. i just ran the system test and by all intents and purposes, i have fulfilled all requirements and should be good to go on taking it. which is why there is this small, hard ball of guilt settling at the bottom of my stomach. it started with launching one morning class in bed and it snowballed into barely comprehending anything i hear during online classes. i don’t know how i let it get this far. especially considering i’m privileged enough to have sufficient tech and a strong enough connection to join online classes with minimal issues. but where am i left right now? feeling guilty about feeling selfish. wanting the exams to be completely cancelled so i have an absolutely concrete reason to not take them, absolving me of having to do the exams when i’m unprepared through no fault but my own. aside from the guilt, i don’t even know how to sort out the r...