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someone i follow quote tweeted this tweet with their red flags and i resonated too much with some of hers that it it was inevitable i'd try to think deeper about my own red flags LMAO

this honestly pains me to do which i guess indicates a red flag in itself which is my inability for introspection and to admit i'm anything less than perfect. all that leads to my next red flag which is feeling extremely defensive whenever i'm confronted with something i may have done that made someone feel something negatively. 

i am also deathly uncomfortable with confrontation so if i feel like someone is mad at me, i will say nothing to the point where the friendship dies out but i think i'm getting better at that because i have recently built myself up to ask two different friends about what i felt was them being standoffish.

both of them said they weren't aware they were being standoffish which i guess is indicative of another red flag in that i'm constantly anxious that people are bugged by me. a teeny tiny part of me believes they're lying which *ding ding ding* another red flag! what is the meaning of this?? am i always thinking people are lying to me because i'm projecting that i always lie to people about my feelings because it's easier???? am i always dishonest about my feelings??? could that be another red flag???

okay this is too much introspection i feel embarrassed to even be writing this but i'd be more embarrassed to tweet about it where people can see me so...