post final finals

hello

i am here coming to you at the end of the day of when i sat for my APM exam. this will (hopefully) be my last exam ever before i start work.

i would like to just get my thoughts out so that something exists in perpetuity to remind me of how i felt about this session's exams. just in the off chance that i might need it when results come out this mid-july.

sbl was a breeze compared to apm. i finished way too early which worries me. but i think i left the exam room feeling like i truly did my best with all the requirements. i tried to hit the half way point in terms of mark allocation for every single requirement and with the extra time i had, i went beyond that in some places as well.

apm... i think my dad was right in suggesting i was overconfident. i studied, i did Qs, maybe not as much as i should have. throughout the whole time i was doing it, i kept thinking there was no way what i wrote fulfilled the requirements but i couldn't figure out what else i was supposed to do.

after the exam, i think i finally understood why the pass rates for apm is always so low. i'm trying not to think about it too much but i had to get this out just in case i screw up. i'd like future me to know that it's not the end of the world, i promise. everything can be discussed, negotiated and worked through. you have a great support system who is going to be there for you.

til exam results come out, i'm just going to focus on playing badminton, drinking coffee and possibly updating my resume because it is easy and i am capable and i am qualified for anything i want to do or pursue.